You just gotta agree with this.
Hai peeps. I promise this time I'll keep my blog alive. People don't really read my blog anyways. Boo thatttttt thang :/
So many things happened in this 2 months. Well, yeah. That includes my beloved grandma. She passed away on the 7th May 2011, 11.37pm. The week before that I went to visit her. She's still okay. She's still pulling my shirt and sleeping. On the 6th of May, (Friday) I told my dad to invite everyone to dinner on Saturday for Mother's Day and buy a cake for grandma. And just right after that, auntie called. She said grandma's condition is getting serious and asked us to visit her. I thought its a normal thing because grandma had been in serious condition several times but then a few days after that she would be okay. So I went to tuition that night. After my parents fetch me from tuition, they sent me to my auntie's house. Cousin's there also. Grandma was sent to the hospital without me knowing. I was terrificly scared because grandma had never been so serious and need to be sent to the hospital. I wanted to follow to the hospital that night but my parents don't allow me to.
The next morning was Tjenli's birthday. Mum basically lied to me that grandma is okay so I would go celebrate Tjenli's birthday happily. I did not visit grandma that day, which is Saturday's afternoon till night. And there is when my tears start to roll down on my cheek. I see her lying on the bed, with needles poking all over her hands and bleeding. She's struggling to breathe. I had never seen her like that before. And that's the moment where I regretted for not treating her as good as I can. I did not want to leave that night, but I had to. I can't sleep. I was rolling on the bed thinking of grandma. Then comes the phone call from cousin. I knew something is not right. Yeah.. she passed away.. The pictures of her running in my head that moment. We quickly rush to the hospital. The nurses were cleaning grandma. And that's the moment where I lost the most important person in my life.
To know that I can't call anyone grandma now, it makes me cry. I hate separations. But I guess grandma's gone for good. God loves her, that is why God doesn't wants her to be tortured in the hospital so He took her with him. I love you ahpo, forever and always.
She's the best grandma on earth, I swear
7/5/2011, 11.37pm
Mother's Day of 2011
